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Today marks one year since I changed my battle with weight forever. It almost doesn’t seem real. That’s all I can really say. Right now, one year later, I can’t really believe that I made that decision in the first place, that at one point in my life I was so desperate and sad about being fat. I mean, I remember those feelings…but only vaguely. It’s been so long it seems since I experienced a complete sense of hopelessness in regards to my body.

I am sitting here drinking some tea by the light of a sheer white cotton fragranced candle. First of all, how the hell do they know what the colour WHITE smells like? Honestly, people! Secondly, about the weight loss, it’s started to pick up again for completely unknown reasons. I thought I would be staying at 212-15 forever. I thought maybe that my body was done, but apparently it’s not because this week I am down to 207, which is an all time low for me. When I first did my hotdog diet in 2002-2003 I went from 288 down to 210 in a matter of maybe 5 months or something like that…and gained it all back and then some over the years because I ate one piece of bread (slight hyperbole). So to actually reach 207 is an amazing feat for me because I can honestly say I have not been this weight since elementary school.

When I went to the information session with Dr.Hendricks in Michigan he told us that GBS patients will lose 60-80% of their EXCESS body weight. He pegged the weight that I should be at 175. That means that in order to lose 100% of my excess body weight I would need to lose 147. I have lost 115 out of that 147 which equals roughly 78%. So my next goal will be to lose another 5 pounds to put me OVER the average of excess body weight lost, and from there I wish to make the under 200 pounds goal.

It’s a weird day filled with quiet reflection and a little bit of loneliness. I have been cooped up all day working and the only guy I really talked to was the UPS guy and I almost said “today is my birthday” so that he would say happy birthday — even though it’s not my real birthday, and it’s a different birthday of sorts.

No pictures until I hit 120 pounds folks! It’s always by the 20s! PLUS i don’t think there is any difference anyway!

Thank you to all my friends who have been cheering me on from day 1, and even day -120 from when I was contemplating this whole adventure. Your support has meant the world to me and I can’t tell you enough how much I love you and hope that this blog has been a good read.  <3

Because I cannot update you with progress pictures, here is a picture of me at Halloween: